It's Been 7 Months

What Did I Do Since My Last Post

It’s 2026. Shocking, isn’t it? And today is my son’s fourth birthday, which seemed like the best time to make a comeback.

I’ve been thinking about this for a long time. I’ve tried to write a new short story to post. It was one of my drives every time I opened my laptop. I’ve been thinking about sharing my life, my inspiration, my highs and lows with you.

None of those happened.

This happened in the past 7 months.

As some of you know, I took a new job in March 2025 as a trainee lawyer because of a tragic event in my family that led to instability in my life. But most of all, the change in family dynamics endangered my son’s future, because I knew that if I stayed on that path, it would be him who would feel the fallout the most. And I couldn’t let that happen. I also couldn’t let my husband carry the financial load in the new status quo. So I decided to finally start using my degree and build a financially stable life step by step.

And as you noticed, my pre-made content ran out in May 2025. Or at least I thought…

What I didn’t have time for is to produce new fiction. My job requires a lot of focus. Mental energy of constant studying, the pressure, the expectation, and the fear of failure all nipped away at my creative willpower. Add parenting to that and you get the picture. I was half-dead by the time I touched the keyboard.

The inner drive to write was there. I just couldn’t produce. It was maddening. Even now, I can’t write a short story for the life of me.

All that said, I still got some writing done here and there.

The first project I worked on since March 2025.

One of my oldest novel ideas is Are You Free Tonight? A breath of fresh air after months of not writing. A paranormal romance novel with highly divisive concepts and characters. But it’s a simple plot line, two POV, one main goal: will they stay together?

At 31k words, the first draft is about half-done. I didn’t write all those words this summer, just about 15k. But I stopped there, right around the midpoint, because I couldn’t figure out how to push them forward and get the satisfying end I want. Plus, work kicked in again after a brief summer break.

The second project.

Despair, book 2 of The Soul Rune series. I had about 60k words written, and now it stands over 87k words. And you all know what this series means to me. This is my drive, my all-consuming project that either burns so hot it turns my soul to ash, or whispers quietly but persistently, haunting me every second I don’t have a task to do.

While Are You Free Tonight? was like taking a breath after almost drowning; this one was like being buried in a cave, but it’s all good because you have your security blanket with you.

This book has 7 POV, 2 main plot lines, 7 individual character arcs, and they all need to connect. Which is exactly what is happening at 87k words, so I’m stalling. I listen to podcasts, and I dream about coming back to Substack, and I revisited another novel.

The third project.

The first book of an urban fantasy series: What You See in the Mirror. This one has been living with me since 2020. The idea that started it was my tired brain misreading a line in my criminal law notes “Children kept in mirrors”. Obviously, there isn’t a section in the Hungarian Criminal Code where children are kept in mirrors… And from that tiny fragment, my mind spiraled. And it became this fascinating world with shapeshifters and mirror magic. Because, obviously, you need mirror magic if you have children in mirrors.

What You See in the Mirror stands at 47k words. Also being a half-finished draft. This one was tricky because I rewrote the existing 20k words in first person, then added new words, reorganized things, added tiny details, and then I reached the midpoint and returned to Desire again.

My plans for the future

Desire and What You See in the Mirror. These two are priorities right now.

And I need to finish one short story before my best friend ties me to my desk and forces me to write it at gunpoint. So be prepared to read about George again, because he has another story to tell.

I have a few ideas about how to write and post regularly here, and one of them includes dragons and cool magic. Little short stories from a world I’m keeping in the back of my mind and won’t let me be.

For now, I’ll post a few of my short stories I forgot I didn’t share here. The first is coming tomorrow. Hopefully, they will be enough for me to get back into a schedule. We’ll see.

I’m not gone. I didn’t stop writing. Life hijacked me.

If you’re still with me, I thank you for it. And as always, I offer the same quality fiction as before. And know that even if I vanish, I’ll come back because writing is life.